March 2012
4 posts
9900 !
Haven spent on anything expensive this year other than my headporter bag ! Wow. Okay so maybe I shall change my blackberry to 9900. Faster surfing and has wifi hotspot. :)
February 2012
30 posts
Woke up at 3am. I kept dreaming about my driving test. I really think too much. It wasn’t a bad dream though.
Whaff'uck ?!
Why must we sergeants shift bunk ?! My god they are so COCKED UP. Whoever’s idea this was. We’re better off staying out man. Now we needa stay in this measly buunk for another 3 months. Zz.
Finally. Driving course is really ending. Tmr’s the day where I prove my worth after all that scoldings and stress I got the past few weeks. TP !! I can do this. Totally. I know...
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Too tired. Wanted to post an entry. Guess ill do it tmr. Off to bed.
Strength in mental and body.
This week, lots of tests. Re-taaking of tests as well. Somewhat ending (HELL YEAH!). Gonna have to take one day at a time. So tmr, primary focus shall be parking test. Clear that then I can go backk to being pressured for driving. I’m somewhat 60% immune to my instructors ranting and raves of profanities. Most of the time I ignore him these days. Anyway by tuesday I expect myself to have...
Staying in till I pass out as 3rd sergeant in june. Sighh !
And I’m hungry right now on my bed ! :/
Spare me.
Had a chat with a mate yst during fun driving day. Okay that phrase isn’t official lol. Anyway it sort of surprised me hugely that he grew up only with his grandparents. Here I am still contacting my mom and stuff. Gosh. Okay sorry this whole paragraph have bad sentence structure lol. Mainly coz I’m typing this right before I’m gonna sleep. Anyway it struck something into me.
I...
I can handle it.
Its how I make the best of everything. Its me. Eventually all this wiill end. And I will move on. Being down is just part of the process of this whole course. I know I should be saying tmr will be better but I just wanna get real: next week will be much better.and that is a fact.
tonight I feel damn sleepy. Guess my eyes are tired from surfing the net the whole day. Gonna RO in a wwhile then...
where's my rooom of happineess ?
Hmmmm. 2 places. My own room when I’m sitting in front of my imac and prolly at town where I’m sitting down and enjoying my Chippys.
F U is for fucked up.
What the f ? I thought can nights out just now so we went ahead. My first timee having to stay in on friday night and this has to happen. Got caught by a mercileess warrent. Still can threaten me DB summore. Fuck you go DB just because of this. Makkes me hate army even more.
I can’t take it take it no moreee, nvr felt like felt like this before~
Listenin’ to some BRITNEY.
By default, next week’s the last week I will see my instructor’s wretched face. God pls let next week be the last. I’m so sick of it all. Can’t drive in peace. Parking no problem but driving always demoralised. He still can tell me to take it like a man. I AM...
Options.
Still researching. Looking for options. Options. Need moree of it. So I gotta keep looking.
Dementors.
Its really depressing staying in here. I’ve nvr feelt this dreadful before. Not even during SYFC days. Mom says for everything, there are challenges I must face. It was much more terrible last week when I was sick. Now I juust tell myself that what doesn’t kill me will make me stronger.
Feels like I’m surrounded by dementors.
Fighting through >>
“Here I am once again, I’m torn into pieces, can’t deny can’t pretend…”
Spent my 22nd bday being sick and driving land rovers. Officially worse year ever.
Finally I’m showing signs of recovery. My throat feels so much better but seems like there’s slight flu. But at the very least I’m not coughing in pain anymore.
In bunk just finished...
Rickety
Finally got a haircut today and recruit-look no more !
Still sick till today. But still gonna settle my macdonalds craving tmr. Sigh. Why does Sunday have to come so soon..
February 10th.
A reminder to tell me howw old I am every year. God I wish I was home at the very least.
HOLY
Stupidly aagreed to change tonights driving with my buddy for friday’s. Zz.
Today was like almost reaching the limit. Wtf is wrong wif me ? Good god.
:(
Reminisced the times when I was free before my ns. God I miss my caarefree days so much. I hope I’m out on friday so I can have a better rest and maybe taste an awesome cake at home. Smooth driving tmr hopefully !!
Dayy #6 of being sick. When will I recover !! I’ve stopped soft drinks alrdyy. :( nvr had my voicce been this bad before…
Driving first shift tmr morning. Super dupeer uber sian. Morning traffic is heavy. Sigh. Sure gonna get f-ed. So goddamn trying hard to avoid my mistakes but wwhy ?! Why do I still commit them time to time.
Couting down 5 more weeks… Come on I...
For the next 7 weeks, I’m so gonna hate sundays.. And I really mean that work now.. Hate. So depressing.
Booking in wif lots of medicine this week. Sure bookout on saturday. So depressing pls. But I guess everyone feels the same way. From now on I’m just gonna drive safely and ignore the rants from my instructor. That’s what I’m gonna remind myself everyday.
I need more break..
Maybe I should just do what I gotta do. Drive more confidently. Do it like a pro. I can totally do this. Screw those driving instructors ! Fark those hags. I CAN.
Gd luck to me for the tough weeks ahead. :/ I need my friday nightt tmr god. Pls lemme have it.
January 2012
21 posts
Going mono everyday
I aint going to give this one up no matter. Felt so down after today’s driving lesson lol. Always when I picck something up and things start out so well but right after the first few lessons I begin to fuck it up. Back then it used to be complacency but that can’t be the same for now. I mean I really was focusing on the whole lesson. Come on gimme more lee-way man. I’ve nvr done...
Caged !
Soo emo. So goddamn sian of staying in here. There’s nthg here at all !! They should give us nights out every nighttttt ! Still have 8 more weeks to go. Sighhhh. I can’t believe I had thoughts of signing on before I enlisted. I. Muust have been crazy.
The food is seriously making me ill…
Aiming for friday bookout..
2nd week bookout safe. Record’s still on ! Haven’t book out on a saturday before since enlistment ! Haaha.
Driving practs have been going real good. Can feel the improvement with each lesson. Just need to stay focused. It gets boring and long winded yes but it’s only forr 2 months. Gotta keep telling myself that.
Kay I wanna see how my new bag looks like tmr.
CNY bebeh.
Practically rot at home today doing nthg ! Didn’t even took out any books. Jialat alrdy. Lol. Stayed at home too long until got headache !
Tmr quite a coupla stuff to bring in when booking in manz. Food and charger is a must. Feel damn sian when talking about booking in…………… But no ! I said I’m gonna finish this and pass on first attempt...
Holidays still feel so short. 4 days only. :(
In any case, my 11 weeks in kaki bukit camp is gonna be a loong winded one. Theory and pract rotating it’s shifts. I can do this. Totally. Just stay focused !
In other news, iim still researching and thinking. :/
Turning 22 in 3 weeks time ! Damn shits so old. Haix. Jasper’s in Tokyo now. Can’t decide if I should ask...
Day 1. First night in my new camp. En route to being a transport sergeant. Gd night!
And.. No
Im not gonna stop at that. This time is gonna be different. No morr being disheartened and no more giving up.
Truthfully..
Looks like wearing No. 1 uniform was just a dream from me since NCC days. Physical challenges have always been part of my life. This reallly wasnt what i have expected………
It's like ..
Getting your O Level results. Candidly put, its like a Maplestory job advancement. But what i had hoped for didnt happen.
Im going to be a Transport Supervisor. Its like a blessing in disguise yeah coz of the driving license thingy. It cant be changed now. Its fixed and that’s that. Sembawang camp shall be my second home for the next 6 months i suppose.
Woo turning 22 in 3 weeks...
